Im okay...
stop asking me if I want things to go diffrent ways
cant dream because I wake up
How did I know how this was going to end up?
Ive been through this before
so stupid for wanting more.

I cant sleep at night
so many thoughts are twirelling in my mind
my heart beats fast
and I can hear it in my ear
its like your heart is in my head.
I hate love. I hate it But I love it so

Its hard to let go of something you dont really know
does it show?
Does it show?

Im still alive I plan to be alright
I cant win this fight
my hearts already won over.
O I want this to be over.
I cant stand it

I feel like my whole head my body just shakes
and I cant think straight
when i think about it
its okay Ill be fine
the words you say in my mind just rewind

I love everything you seem
But seeming is just dreaming
I love the smile you wear
but smiles can be erased
with lips locked upon them

its pathetic really
How i feel
Im not even sure if its real anymore.

take my hand
i promise I wont ever hurt you
Take my heart
It might curse you.

well the world is so amazing I know no one reads this but its okay cause Im going to write because I feel the need to write...So I gon right and you gon listen haha.

I keep on trying to get the word
out everyone turning round always trying to pretend like
they souled out
you have doubt cant have doubt to believe in Jesus the Great
How can you even not believe for heavens sake
He loves you with all his heart
Not just a part of you the whole thing
they way you look the way you think
there things he aint exactly proud of
but its ight
cause he hates the sin but loves the sinner nomada what.

Your life aint yours
stop trying to control
He isnt just a thing
hes everything
you praise his name
and say the word
you cant go wrong in life
things dont get worse they get rite
no more tears at night
the tears come down
as you crying to God
asking him to get closer into your life
Dont even try to cut your wrist
its his life

I aint gonna pretend that every minute of the day
im prasing his name
but believeing in him
i got no shame
im all souled out
I praise him day by day,
there aint a day I aint looking up to the sky
I never hide my faith
Holy father you everything I am
I dont understand why your people try to pretend
but it aint right

see the lord works in diffrent ways
not everyday he comes is gonna be the same
he reaches out to everyone through people
and thangs.
Music messes with the minds of those who are trying to get right
talking bout sex and party nights
where do you get when you live that life
same thing diffrent night
How'd I get here what did I do?
Oh crap Im preganat why God why
see you should of kept up your fly

I keep trying to get out to everyone
that he is everything
Holy father I love you
every minute of the day
even when things dont go my way
I know you do things to bring me to who i am today
my sisters died but they lived your way
I cant be mad its your plan
I cant be sad I live today and I spreading your name
Im doing what you want me to do
and I wouldnt change a think
I know they watch me and protect me each single day
they watching over me when you got things to do.
I love you lord

my grandpa died when i was just 5
yea that stings it dont feel right
but I know things wouldnt be the same as they are to night
my granny and I take care of eachother and she aint go tthe perfect life
she aint the happiest of them all
but Im gonna catch her even if she feels like she gonna fall
spread the word in her face so she surrenders to your name.

my aunt dont always do the right thing
but she gots her heart in the right place
Lord she loves you lord
yea things dont always be right
but she is still living
I dont know what your plan is but I aint trying to figure it out for her tonight

I love you lord see the blessings you've given me even if you didnt
id still beleive the feeling of peace even when the worlds at my feet and Im weak
I know you wont leave me Lord
nah you everything
the way the light
your the reason i sleep at night and wake up into the light.

time passes by each day
walks away
in a blink of an eye
why do we walk away from the things
that create what makes our life move forward
why do we pretend like everything is okay
when really were breaking slowly

Oh Ive been hurt before
Oh but thats in the past
I fell but he held me up
and since the first
fall I still wont give up

All things happen for a reason
diffrent days
always a season
Im not gonna walk away from
what I think is right
I know that the things Ive decided to do
the person I am now
I know it was Gods plan.

So why do we always try to understand
the things thats only in His hands?
why cant we accept that things go wrong
we go through trials
but we always get strong

you either sit and pretend
that everything is okay.
and than explode the next day
Or you see things for what it is

Ive seen so many good people
just fall into a dark hole
cause they couldnt keep control
of things that they tried to control
but you gotta realize
you aint living your own life
you living for Christ

So no things aint gonna just gonna go your way
you keep thinking that
He's gonna put things in your face
or your gonna fall back
you cant get up
without his warm touch
you cant build the flame
you just gonna be the same everyday
No where to go

Girls trying to be beautiful
trying to show there stuff
cause they think boys cant get enough
thinking thats the only way
there ever gonna want me
but you gotta sit and think
you think he's gonna want you for who you are
or what you have?
Girls gotta cover it up
you cant find love in a zipper
Pain and Blood is gonna just get thicker
And your gonna hurt quicker.

Boys trying to show they guys how they do there stuff
Always trying to call the shots
thinking they got it all
thinking that they want the body of the chick on the right
He dont look at who she is
just what she gots
shes just for tonight.
there aint no connection
cause its just part of his collection
than he'll tell his friends
or even use her and pretend
when he's got a girl at home
and this girl will never know.

the girl goes home
her clothes ripped
cause she thought she could but she didnt want to go that far
crying
cutting to make a scar
she cant hold up
why didnt she give it up
it was all a small kiss a slip up the skirt
a smile,a drink or two
than it all gets hazy
she cant control this anymore
clothes ripp
its all out the door
now shes stuck

Boy cant beleive what he just did
why'd he have to change and rip her innoncene away
he asked the Lord why?
why did I have to be so dumb?
why"d I have to hurt someone
cant you take this sin away
or am I gonna live with this guilt everyday!

So many times we make mistakes
thinking that they will never be taken away
the broken home
the scars those who feel like they dont wanna live.
Insecuritys broken hearts
its all apart of what you create yea pain is there
but pain fades
you get stronger
see christ died on the cross
so our sins would wash away
if we call upon him and ask for his forgivness

But you gotta remeber
theres one thing
we got free will
means you can say
and do as you feel
If you follow Christ
You have a holy life
you walk away things gonna hit you like a knife
the bleeding wont stop
your heart will just explode
your self will just rott
you'll be stuck in the same hole
darkness surronding
everything out of your control

I notice so many time
people ask why?
why is my life so bad?
Why do you put you probelms in his hands?
why are you trying to walk away from the father
who created everything you are everything you have
How did we begin to forget the truth
how did it become that we dont believe?


to be contiuned...

You saved me plain and simple words that mean so much
Oh lord you are everything

I was crying kept denying
Nothing in my life seemed right
so you took me and wiped away
my fears my crys
and gave me new life

you opened my eyes
Jesus you pulled out my darkness
and put in the light
you saced my life
Lord I give my whole heart to you

Old can become new
tears to to joyful
Hunger means nothing
with you Im satisfyed

A soul can be weak
but your presence
brings us to out knees
and gives us strength to breathe
Oh Lord I used to bleed
Oh lord you kept me
you showed me you loved me
all I had to do was ask.

My whole heart to you is yours
Jesus
worthy are you Lord
you saved my life
you save the world
open your eyes
put down your pride
get on your knees
look to the cross
Just believe

Its already 1 in the morning,turned down the T.V. but the words keep pouring in my head,I thought I should write this down,Im scared,Im stuck in a dream I know its not reality,sweet words,A longing to be near,Dreams are only short Oh moments like these wont dissapear.
(chorus)
I just want the words to describe tonight
cant sleep
I cant keep what I want to be mine
Im praying to erase the feeling
Its so dumb of me
Its just a dream
when will this dream be done
I can still feel my heart beat
why isnt it numb?

still awake,still my pen shakes
as I write all this down a million miles apart but one heart
with the same beat,Oh everyone knows distance means everything
and dreams go away as soon as you wake up
Sometimes I wonder if Im dreaming anymore

(Chorus)

I hear a song saying Lonely no more
I wasnt lonely before
So I kee building this wall
what if you kick it down and it falls?
did God want this?
can true things be distant?

I cant sit here and pretend
that Im not about to go to the edge
of the wall that Ive built
Its hard to keep it sealed
with the part that your begining to fill

How can you pretend
and hesitate
to something that you
you cant reach?
How can you pretend
to fall for something you cant keep

I wish I could just let it all go
forget that reality is where Life goes
but this is such a sweet sweet dream
you seem to be something
I cant live without

Tomorrow things could change
you could walk down the street
see someone new
see these are things that I think
that nothing is really as It seems
Life has made me realize
that nothing can be perfect

God knows my thoughts and How I feel
is this imagination or is it real?
How do I really feel?

If I could walk across the states just to
see your face
Id do it and never look back
see these things make me think maybe Im just dreaming or is it real?