it happened over again...
sadly I was gullable...what a trouble that can be to believe
someone loves me...
I wish I would of just listened to my mind...
How much time Ive wasted

Same thing..Just not the same day...
And I swore I heard you say
you;d never abuse me..
but you did but I live..
its okay...
I should of known words are so cruel
espeically when they hit hard...

On my heart...
Oh my heart...
my heart...well you restarted it than
you broke parts..
but luckly I have glue
and how lucky I am..
I dont have a lier like you...

funny how God knows the truth...
everyday he watches..
everyday he see;s your so lovely..
your such a problem..
and theres no solving
cause i found out the truth

And I have paper..
I have sizzors and glue
so I can cut your memories..
glue back new ones...
its sad...Im so dumb..
but so smart...
now Ill rip these memories
and tear apart the part you hurt on my heart..

On my heart...
Oh my heart...
my heart...well you restarted it than
you broke parts..
but luckly I have glue
and how lucky I am..
I dont have a lier like you...

lier lier..

theres a song playing in the background of my mind..
and I cant no I cant make up my mind...
cars flash by in the corner of my eyes
stars twinkile in the night sky
and I still cant make up my mind...

Branches on the ground...
stepping oh steeping on time..
and still cant make up my mind..
clouds in the sunlite sky...
as I walk upon the ground...
as than I sigh...

Cause you are a mystery..
straight questioning when I feel the way that I do..
I wish you knew...
but you dont...and I wont...
ever tell you..
a secret only God will know...
and I cant make up my mind....


Slow..motion as Im choking on words...
branches fall....skys rain
only butterlies wandering not afraid...
and I want to hide..
cuase i cant make up my mind..
cant make up my mind...oh oh...

Cause you are a mystery..
straight questioning when I feel the way that I do..
I wish you knew...
but you dont...and I wont...
ever tell you..
a secret only God will know...
and I cant make up my mind....

na da na da na da da da da ooo...

you inspire me
you dont lie to me..
you seem so sincere
its frightning..
light lightning you strike my mind
so many times...
never just in one phase all over the place...
yea...

and everyday when I dont see your face...
I feel a stronger phase..of this feeling...
and everyday...we never miss a word no
its worth the moments that we have...
when you speak things cant go that bad...

and I wish I wasnt in limbo
wish I knew...
do I like you...
ah ha ha...
do I see you as just someone I can talk to
oh what to do...
nanaananadada
limbo......
will this grow...
or stay in limbo...
na na na...

oh oh this doesnt happen much...
not used to not knowing how I feel...
the though appeals...
but cant be so sure its reall...
so I just hide or reason how I feel..
you drive me crazy..
the clouds in my mind so blue but so hazzy

am I I I in limbo...
with you....
with you.....
do I see you as something I could like...
oh so many times i try to figure out why...
Im starting to have a habit..
an attraction a smile a sigh whenI cant see you
or so I try...na na na...but I cant figure it out...
am I wanting to like you...
or could we do without...
na na na na na so out of control
stuck in limbo...
limbo...

and everyday when I dont see your face...
I feel a stronger phase..of this feeling...
and everyday...we never miss a word no
its worth the moments that we have...
when you speak things cant go that bad...

and I wish I wasnt in limbo
wish I knew...
do I like you...
ah ha ha...
do I see you as just someone I can talk to
oh what to do...
nanaananadada
limbo......
will this grow...
or stay in limbo...
na na na...

mmm yeea yea...
well darling
Im sorry were parting..
but- you werent even good for me
so this is how it should be...
so Im gonnna go on my way...

cause you didnt really see me
you just pretending it all
and it was a begining
but than it died...
and I cant help it
but I just wanna laugh and Im not gonna hide...
cause Im not hurt

I thought thatd I cry...
but without you around...
my heart...restarts
even faster than it was before...
and you should of known by now..
im stronger each time
another heartbreak comes around....

na na na na

I tried to cry...
but there were no tears no no
isnt it strange
yesterday I felt pain
its amazing what you can pray away...
I dont need to be with you...
or even need you...
it doesnt matter now...Ive moved to a new view...
my life is better without you...


I thought thatd I cry...
but without you around...
my heart...restarts
even faster than it was before...
and you should of known by now..

hey hey hey hey..
yea we went down down down down

but now now...
theres is no you around..
there never was...

No love No love..
just an imagine
a photography..
something I dont have...

and when another you comes along..
Ill knwo its wrong...
yea Ill remeber how many times...
and how it nevergets farr....

la la l la la yea yea
no more heartbreak
no no no more earthquakes
no more love...
No more sweet words...to give me a kick...

love is thick...
love is rare..
its only real when there there...
and you werent so here I go...
the words in my memory burns
they burn yea the burn burn...


I thought thatd I cry...
but without you around...
my heart...restarts
even faster than it was before...
and you should of known by now..
No heartbreak only burned memories so goodbye its the end...

how many times have I heard I wont forget
than you do and Im supposed to keep on loving you..
I pray everyday that patients enters me but the more I wait
the more I feel i cant breath
cause youforgettingmakeseverything seem so done
done with you...
telll me...
i need to know...

is it really that easy...
to delete me
to treat me as if Im nothing
is it that easy...
And if so just let it go
forget me...


I

So I left a note...
I couldnt say the words
cause I might choke..
seeing your eyes
or even the words
no I cant stand to just tell you lies
Id fall right in your arms
cause I just cant do you no harm...
I dont want to leave but
what can I do...
I cant sit and believe when I know deep down
your not the one....
and Im sorry but Im gonna go find the one....

Nomader how I say this write this
dont matter
no need to try...
I cant live a lie
I thought maybe Id try it
but than I realized no point int denying
that your not the one God gave to me...
and since I know you wont leave me...
Im writting this note..and signing my name sincerly...
Im sorry Im sorry
but Im leaving...

I can see your face...
as you walk to the door...
seeing nothing there
wondering what ya did
I didnt even warn ya...
didnt even give you a sign
darling it was a moment
I had a moment of time in mymind..
where i realize...
I cant pretend that this is right...
when I know your not the one...
and Its fun but I cant pretend time goes by so fast...oh oh oh oh


Nomader how I say this write this
dont matter
no need to try...
I cant live a lie
I thought maybe Id try it
but than I realized no point int denying
that your not the one God gave to me...
and since I know you wont leave me...
Im writting this note..and signing my name sincerly...
Im sorry Im sorry
but Im leaving...

You always saying one thing than than doing another
why do I even bother...
wheres this friend thang going anyway...
Im sick of feeling like...
your watching me across the room
and i hear from everyone elses mouth how ya feel
but with you its like what they say aint real...
I dont know how you feel...
you drive me nuts
and Its what I love...
this heart isnt done..this heart doesnt start...cant you just speak the words...


dont be silent
just open your mouth
either way Im gonna shout
Im done with wondering
its either you want me or your out...
I cant wait anymore...
Im trying to be patient
so here I go the door is closed...

whys your foot in the door...
oh oh oh


Its around around in this small area
everyone saying one thing
but you just say nothing
are you afraid
Nomader what you say
at least the words are out of the way...
I cant sit and pretend I dont hear
no cause I do
yea yea I do...
but not from you...

dont be silent
just open your mouth
either way Im gonna shout
Im done with wondering
its either you want me or your out...
I cant wait anymore...
Im trying to be patient
so here I go the door is closed...

whys your foot in the door...
oh oh oh

I have to hide that Im Upset..
cause the words that Id say...
I know Id regret...

it hasnt happened yet..
I hold my words back cause I know the circumstances
that were both at...
its the fear its the trust that doesnt go straight in one lane...
cause I feel so neglected...
I feel so done...

but than again I love you...

You hold the place in my heart
that keeps it all together
you always wipe the tears when im under the weather...
and you always shout for joy when Ive done a good thang...
your my reason for breathing..
the reason I live...

before I wouldnt even bother I would just exist.
but with you I live..
yea till the end...
and than we'll meet face to face...
and everything will fit into place...
your my love...my heart....
and Your the only one who will never rip me apart...

all the broken edges yea you spread them out..
and when I feel lonely you make sure Im not left out..
when you tell me to do something
sometimes I ignore...
but you understand me still
and Im everything to you and more...

I can do everything becuase you beleive in me...
you see my imperfections as something wonderful and beautifully made
and I can sincerly say without you Id fade..without you Id break...

emptyed again
and opened new...
it happenes again and again you build me up
than let me fall...
and even when it happens
i love you after it all...
emptyed again..
emptyed again...

you say so many sweet things
and than you say nothing...
yea...
you tell me im the one you love
but sometimes i thinking your just bluffing...
its hard to beleive the one you love is someone you dont see...
I cant get a hold of the reasons for this...
we love we laugh..and than we dissapear..and I love you I fear you but I cant help it..I love you till the end...
but I always get emptyed again...la la la

you fill me up than empty me out...
and than Im up again all for you...
its hard to love you
but its so hard not too...
I get confused..I hold so tight
but Im loosing you...
Im falling out...thristing for more..
but I just end up poured out on the floor...
you empty me out...
yea you empty me out...


words mean everything when I talk to you..
im more serious than i can be...
its important for you to know...
how deep this love goes how it grows
oh and than it gets cut apart when you say nothing nothing at all...
Im brand new emptyed fallen away from you..
but than you just fill me up again..
and I mend but than I bend...
cause everything about this love has no end...
its around and than its down...its blue skys
than its grey...
but still in the midst of the fall it never fades..


you fill me up than empty me out...
and than Im up again all for you...
its hard to love you
but its so hard not too...
I get confused..I hold so tight
but Im loosing you...
Im falling out...thristing for more..
but I just end up poured out on the floor...
you empty me out...
yea you empty me out...

Im reaching for you..dont pour me out...
I cant imagine why you'd leave me out of it all...
I cant imagine why you'd break this wall
and than build it up again...
I have no time to think only time to mend...
but than you make me bend...


your words...say so many things..
and your actions well what are they worth...
when theres nothing no nothing it at all..
its all just a catch and nothing can fall...
cause I always get emptyed out...
Im without you...
baby I dont want to...
you say I love you..you say you wish
you didnt forget
but thats just it...
if it was real thered be no fading
and for some reason I know that
but Im right here waiting...


you fill me up than empty me out...
and than Im up again all for you...
its hard to love you
but its so hard not too...
I get confused..I hold so tight
but Im loosing you...
Im falling out...thirsting for more..
but I just end up poured out on the floor...
you empty me out...
yea you empty me out...

I fall and scrap my knee but I always get up
Id never give up nomader what it is
why waste the time God has to give..
and yea Its really messed up what ya did
but Ill live...
...

I would say that my heart is broken
but it isnt it no
yea its not open
but its not gonna make me give up
I beleive in love...
yea I believe
and theres nothing htats gonna stop me from living my dreams
You hurt me to the point of wishing I had a spotless mind
but instead I know Im gonna have to give this time
forget the feelings I have..
casue you dont have time and thats just too damn bad
its sad that you forgot me...

Im gonna get up
Im gonna pull the sheets
set my bed..
cause Im moving ahead
no reason to stop life..
yea it hurts,but I know that wasnt what I deserved...
Im gonna cry,and Im gonna scream
but that dont mean anything
its just my feelings its just cause
you broke apart this heart that is now yours
and Im gonna leave it at your door
cause I dont want it anymore..
Ive got a newheart...
one that wont break...
yea..wont break...

I pretended that it was all gonna be fine
that we would one day be in time
but its all an imaginary
thing
I should of known youd find better thangs
Im a girl
wishing for a boy on a white horse...
and that dreams destroyed
cause I got hurt once more..
but I know I deserve more than whatI think
so this new heart of mine...is staying hiding away..till that one day...



Im gonna get up
Im gonna pull the sheets
set my bed..
cause Im moving ahead
no reason to stop life..
yea it hurts,but I know that wasnt what I deserved...
Im gonna cry,and Im gonna scream
but that dont mean anything
its just my feelings its just cause
you broke apart this heart that is now yours
and Im gonna leave it at your door
cause I dont want it anymore..
Ive got a newheart...
one that wont break...
yea..wont break...

mmmm yea yea yea yea oh lalala

You..Left me...all alone...
You didnt even have the nerve to say
you found another
just left me hanging and didnt bother
giving me a notice
that all the words you said
the late night calls laughing on the phoen
when I was getting ready for bed
saying goodnight babyI love you..
well yea they were so not true...
I told you just tell me when you find someone new..
ill move on get over you..
but just saying nothing hurts like hell..

just lies..
all to pass timelies
so many times...
said so many things
so many dreams
I held so tightly..
but you didnt have a nerve
to let me go lightly...
I was so blind again...
should of just kept it as friends...
instead of could of been...

words you say everyday
leavingmehanging
wasnt a very good thang
how can you say things and just destroy everything
like I was nothing...
your so blind...
I was the girl to pass your time
till she camearound andnoticed you..
well...it was a dream
a thing i mean I fell foryou..
wrote wordsforyou..
lovedyou..
toldyou...
and you saidittoo...but was i dumb....

its too bad.that you had to go and do a think like that
for so long,for so long I didnt know..How didnt I know
what you were up too..I didnt know she was in your life..
I feel like ive been stabbed in the back by my own man
and I dont understand how can you just be with someone else
for the time we were two..
your so untrue..
saying I love you..
saying you wanna marry me have babies...
so the line by now is no
I didntdo what she said I did...
but the signs the days the nights..
you justlieandlie andlie...

so I stayed...yea I know I stayed...thinking she was just full of lies..
i thought nah I know my baby..he really tries he doesnt lie..
ha ha was I wrong..you were cheating all along..a year went by and was livinga lie...

but no more no I left you,stepping on your heart right on the floor..
I hope you know,what you did,it helped me live...
but I still have those oh I cant cant be with a man cause
Hes gonna cheat on me
hes gonna lie and I just cantgo through another river of cries
again
I just just feel I wont love..no love again...

It hurt so bad having to say no to you as you cried
telling me she was just telling me lies and than you ended up saying
oh yea I did what I did but I love you so let me back in..
how can you hurt me..and expect me to be yours again..
you crosed the line
it was so thin...i cant ever trust you again
anyways once I found out the truth I realized theres no way I was in love with you
cause all you was was lies,,telling me your sober,smoking pot when I ewas gone drinking flirting with other girls sleeping around with her telling her the same stuff and its funny you just think she wasnt enough...im lucky that I let go..

(chorus))

So its over...over over over...
but I got closer to a savior
someone who could never ever hurt me
over over over over...

next time around I aint gonna let no one hold me down
I aint ever gonna let another man hold my hand as we walk and he stares at another girl
lusting on her no I dont think so,next time Im gonna know..

Im sick of hearing stuff on the radio telling you to party and dance like a ho
I dont know its just how I feel..and Im gonna be straight up
I have no reason not to be real...
You know the world today aint yesterday where are the examples to live by..
no one tries..people die and dont live when there alive..
You know everyday someone takes there life..
everyday someone gets shot and someone cries...
where do people get hope?
these days lifes about sin,drinking,having sex,always forgetting whats gonna happen next for the consequences that people live by no one really tries..and than they wonder why these day people just die...

No one likes rules
they all want to do things on there own
thinking that they belong to themselves
well thats a straight door to hell
you gotta feel me when I say..
the lord is the way...
an unconditional love that never fades...

So get up,dont stop open the book
dont drop it get hooked..
why you trying to ruin your life..
he died so you can live..
quit the crap get on track
he;s got your back...
hmm...yea...yea...hes got he's got..

Im not gonna lie Im a sinner to
and theres things that I do
that just aintright
but I pray everyday and try to live right..
and I try everyday to become more holy..
and the closer I get to God...the harder my life gets
there struggles but dont you forget
the only way to stand on your feet is if you get by his feet...
love him with all your heart
and nomader the pain.the bad self estem hes right there to hold your hand
and ya know when your far from him
you cant get away from him
he'll follow you even when you sin

So get up,dont stop open the book
dont drop it get hooked..
why you trying to ruin your life..
he died so you can live..
quit the crap get on track
he;s got your back...
hmm...yea...yea...hes got he's got..


I hear so many worship songs..telling us how we should praise the lord
thers more than that to it its a way you live
and its not cause you have to
its cause his love makes you want to..
makes you stronger..work harder you get farther
so raise your hands yea...raise your hands
theres no way you could ever fall with him


when you fall
he picks ya up
and though you cant see him
his presensce means so much
its enough to make me cry..
but this is my life pick up the bible you decide
thats why he died..and than came back up
he bled for the sins that the devil puts in our face..
and he rips them away and than you get saved..
how can you not love a man like this?
nomader what you do,murder,gult,greed wanting more he forgives...
and each time,no time in your life could ever be too late...
hes the way...
i know you hear what Im saying so..

So get up,dont stop open the book
dont drop it get hooked..
why you trying to ruin your life..
he died so you can live..
quit the crap get on track
he;s got your back...
hmm...yea...yea...hes got he's got..

love...love...love..love...love...
nah nah nah nah nah
oh oh ioh

you gonna make me feel like Imfalling
and I ainteven up at all..
you gonna keep calling me
and Imnot gonna want to shut up...
look deep into myhear
cant you see
i dont ever want to be apart
you meanthe world to me
please please
I beg of you..
leav eme...

i dont want to hurt
I dont want to burn
cause I know loving you
aint a cure
its just no use
cause I cant be with you...

i just dont need the nights
where I cant sleep
cause I need to see ur smile
and i just cant stand when my heart is cold
and than you make it burn
I seem to let you hold how I feel
is this real
oh this cant be
I cant stand loving nothing..
I feel so dumb
I feel so numb...
is it okay to feel this way...
i need you...
but I dont want to need you at all..

.i dont want to hurt
and it hurts..
I dont want to burn
cause I know loving you
aint a cure
its just no use
cause I cant be with you...




I cant stand you
I dont understand you
dissapearing all the time
when your all up in my mind
and I never have time
to reason why
Im trying to leave you behind..
but I keep bringing you back..
and I cant realax
cause boy...
your driving me insane...
and its plain to see
im in love with you..
but are you in love with me...
in love with me...
in love with me...
oh oh...
no no no no no i dont need this
no no no I dont so leave me
so leave me so leave so leave me behind...


.i dont want to hurt
and it hurts..
I dont want to burn
cause I know loving you
aint a cure
its just no use
cause I cant be with you...

stop being in my mind
stop calling all the time
stop trying to hold me tight
and never let me go
cause I wont ever go..
so let me go..

i opened my heart look what you did
I opened my heart...
did you know I made heart yours
I bet you didnteven realize
the truth behind my eyes
bet I didnt realize all your lies
I loved you..
I loved..
but you just werent true
God help me
I need to get through
what do I do..
I cant do it anymore..
I opended my heart all the way to the core

its too hard to keep the tears from falling
But they just fall And what am I to say..
when everything we ever had was nothing
cause you were loving another one too...

its really dumb of me
to think that we were something
but what am I to say
I was blinded by someone fake
and I thought you were the one for me
but its plain to see...

you texted me saying I was nothing..she was everything
than the next morning
I get a baby...why you leaving me so suddenly...
we had a fight but this aint right why does it have to end today and all that i can say
is i hope you treat her better than me...

God knows ill be okay...
cause for the first time I prayed
and for the first time today..
im walking away...
walking away from everything that was...
walking away from the best mistake I ever made...

you think id be mad and you think id fall down
and just never get back up but how can I give up

I should of known
I should of payed attention to what was really there
but I didnt care..
I wasnt in love, you were
and than when she appeared you just disspeared
and than i realized I was lieing to myself deep inside
and now without you its just not right...

I let it pass by
I didnt focus I didnt really try
you werent my type
so I just let you hurt and now Im hurting just like you..
who would of known that I would of fallen straight on my feet for you...

I should of opened my eyes
when you said I love you..
cause I loved you too...


I know Now that I lost what I found
and its truly my fault
andIll have to live without theregret
but I know God does it all for a reason
I just knew that you were true...
and I was just confused...

I dont really remeber but I know it happend all in septemeber
you came to my life and it was a huge suprise,and I can perfectly describe the first day I saw your face...brown eyes dark hair,a huge that made me melt I didnt want anyone else

But it may of started but it didnt end the way a i planned...
It ended with a hand on my heart pulling at the seams of all that was perfectly sewn shut
you tell me to shut Up
I tried not to scream
yea you werent at all what you seemed...
I was only 14 and I didnt know anything
right from wrong wasnt at all what I was thinking...
Only fist in my face and cuts I couldnt erase what was I to think....
I thought yea I thought you loved me....

I couldnt let go you made me feel like I was your world...
I just smiled when you said you lovedme
you took everything from me
I could of done something
I was so young I was so done...
what was I to do...
i was soo in love with you...

Kissing in the rain,diffrent days
a kiss on your face..a kiss on mine
your arms I could hide I thought it felt right
but behind it all you werent protecting me at all

...But it may of started but it didnt end the way a i planned...
It ended with a hand on my heart pulling at the seams of all that was perfectly sewn shut
you tell me to shut Up
I tried not to scream
yea you werent at all what you seemed...
I was only 14 and I didnt know anything
right from wrong wasnt at all what I was thinking...
Only fist in my face and cuts I couldnt erase what was I to think....
I thought yea I thought you loved me....



yea I thought you loved me...
I thought you loved me...

you speak to me...
and its like all that was lost is complete
and I want you to hold me,
your my safe place always...
I cant imagine life without you always by my side
and when were far apart...I know your following me.
you always let me learn on my own...
always making sure i get home safe tho
and sometimes I cant stand how I have to wait for you.
but I know in the end its what im supposed to do...

I love you
Father I could not go my whole life
without you by my side
you hold me high
even when Im low
father dont ever let me go...

I turn up the music
and Im singing to you..
cause I know you gave this to me..
for you..
and I dont always do waht you want me too
Im just a child to you...
Im learning each day...
My love never fades
I may question if you hear me but I could never say..
your nothing and you dont mean a thang.cause father you do...


I love you
Father I could not go my whole life
without you by my side
you hold me high
even when Im low
father dont ever let me go...

I love,isnt this a diffrent way to come to you..
Im hiding nothing,Im saying exactly who you are to me.
you craddle me when I need it
you love me even when i dont deserve it
father I love you...
father I love you..
I love you...


I know Im your daughter and I know you love me...
your love brings me to my knees I cry when i know your around
cause you never let me down.and I couldnt ask for anything more
your far more than Ill ever need...
father I love you
father I love you...
father I need you...

you ever think that it could of been diffrent
yea diffrent than this
you ever think that maybe I could smile and make you smile too...
I mean everytime I get close to you..
I have to move back cause I know Ill get sunk into you...
your a distaraction
and all your words give me a reaction
guess I could say I try not to love you...

i try oh i try not to love you
I try to pretend its all gone and than it pops back again
you come into my life..
and I start wishing i was yours and you were mine
I wish I could leave it behind..
but I cant your in my soul in my mind...
I try not to love..you...but what can i do...
Im sinking deep within you...

Did you think you would ever meet me
did you think that we were put here to be together
did you think that we could ever be a team
no I just you and me....
I cant see myself loving anyone else
but I know Im gonna have to put this dream on the shelf...
But I just cant help...it no cant help not loving you...



i try oh i try not to love you
I try to pretend its all gone and than it pops back again
you come into my life..
and I start wishing i was yours and you were mine
I wish I could leave it behind..
but I cant your in my soul in my mind...
I try not to love..you...but what can i do...
Im sinking deep within you...



you dont have to say a word
you can stay over there and Il be here
and still I cant help but wonder if it could dissapear..cause its just my one fear
to loose you...
god knows I try...but I just cant seem to get you off my heart...your sticking to it and you wont let go....oh baby..I just dont know...

i try oh i try not to love you
I try to pretend its all gone and than it pops back again
you come into my life..
and I start wishing i was yours and you were mine
I wish I could leave it behind..
but I cant your in my soul in my mind...
I try not to love..you...but what can i do...
Im sinking deep within you...
and I think its what I want...

I remeber laughing with you,I remeber thinking I loved you..
I remeber doing silly things that everyone else would feel ashamed
but you and I we felt no diffrence in the day...
Feels like forever ago...
We used to walk around the town seeing the sun acting dumb how would I have known
what you would become...
well than we parted
as years went by
I never saw your eyes again and I figured thats how It should of been

Your smile shines like the moon in the sky
Now yous mile wont ever shine
cause your not around anymore

I would of never guessed
it your life would of ended so fast
and I would of never guessed that your place in the world was
only such little time
but I know the little time that you had,
you changed the lives of those who needed it so bad
and you made memories with me far in time
but Ill always remeber your smile...
Always remeber your smile

You were taller than pretty much anyone in middle school
and you acted serious but you were so cool
everyone wanted to love you..be your friend
when you were on stage the whole crowd couldnt keep there eyes off your face
cause you just lit up the whole place...
adam you'll always be missed...

I would of never guessed
it your life would of ended so fast
and I would of never guessed that your place in the world was
only such little time
but I know the little time that you had,
you changed the lives of those who needed it so bad
and you made memories with me far in time
but Ill always remeber your smile...
Always remeber your smile

Im sure you dont remeber
that one day you told me
that you loved me
no its simple isnt it
to just spit the words out...
well you caught my breath
and I chocked on the things u said...
cause I really thought you meant it...

these words will replace your face
Ill write it down all you'll be gone
ill finally be able to move on...
to move on...
toooooooooo

it was long ago and it feels so close
I should of known we'd fall apart
but when your 13 it all just feels like love..
and you cant breathe...
he makes your knees weak...
just like the movies...
isnt it sweet...

well its not sweet its actaully sour...
i have to take a shower so I can wash the pain away...
maybe it would fade yea fade down the drain...
everyday I live with a memory of you...
everyday I pray it might fade..
away...but i see your face
maybe these words will make you dissapear...


I just want to forget...
the kiss in the rain
the words that we said..
the way you held me
and I want to forget...
you...
every twinkle in your eye
every moment that you smiled...
oh the silver the smile I loved..
i just want to forget...I was ever truly in love....
in love....
in love....


I was young and such a fool
you were a dork
and I just could help but hold you hand...
i couldnt help wanting you to be the last man...
i was ever with...
we would stay together
but that was then
that was then
stealing my heart....
wasnt fair...no you arent here...
no...
so I hope these words
make it all dissapear so I wont have to think...of you..at all...never again....
just dissapear...



I just want to forget...
the kiss in the rain
the words that we said..
the way you held me
and I want to forget...
you...
every twinkle in your eye
every moment that you smiled...
oh the silver the smile I loved..
i just want to forget...I was ever truly in love....
in love....
in love...


I was never in love....
I was never in love with you...


But I need you to know...
that all the crazy things we said
and the crazy things I did
I just want to make this closer
please this doesnt mean come closer
I just need you to know
we were young...
and what we thought was
love...well I couldnt get enough...
it took me two years to let you go...
and I hope you know it wasnt easy no not at all..
and im sorry for all the times I cryed
and Im sorry for the lies...
and Im sorry for believeing you...
I really do think though
that what we had was true...

so I remeber that day as the clouds
rolled on,you looked in my eyes...next to the swings
and you were hestant too say how you felt...
you felt shamed so instead you kissed me in the rain....

yesterday I ran upon a page in my diary
it said how much I loved you..
who would of known what you ended up doing in the end of the story...
the story...

it was unexpected it was distruptive...
My jaw draped my heart poped
I was so lost...
so lost....

The pages yea they rott
and the heart leaves dropps
I cant understand why....

so later on I saw pictures
and remebered all the promises you made
how silly 17 and so nieve
you say I want a family
I say yes baby..
behind the lines
it was more like I want that and another girl too....
how dumb were you...
oh how dumb were you...

what were you thinking....
saying God does things right...
when your lips touched another at night
God doesnt deserve to be used...
your words were so cold...
and so are you....

I couldnt help but wonder
all of the things I thought I knew
I think today I dont really care anymore
but I still dont trust anyone
and I still doubt the world as I go...
only one I have is God and I know...
I should be content
but look what you did...
I was broken once again

the wonderful thing about being broken
is the pieces fit right
in the end all mends in the end in the end...
in the end..I woke up and gained new life..
so in the end I know I know it was right...


what were you thinking....
saying God does things right...
when your lips touched another at night
God doesnt deserve to be used...
your words were so cold...
and so are you....

so are you..so are you...
I hope she realizes the truth....

your grace is on my face
my heart my skin...
oh it never ever ends...
my heart may get unstiched
but you take a needle
make sure it mends
you never let my thread just hang
you always hold it tight for me...
your my number one..

I cant imagine
life without you...
you seem to love me so much that I cant really
see how much you love me at all...
sometimes I feel like your not around
than you always show up
and even though its not when I want
your still there to hold me tight....

your my one love for life..
everything about you is beautiful
I could look up to the stars
and know that your there..
the moon shines so bright
and when it does I know its right


you made the stars
you made the sky
and you even made all the people in my life..
your everything....

one day ill be a wife..and Ill know you made him too...
i will never know how much you love...
me do you know id go to the ends of the world
everytime you tell me to walk I will
you are my drug like a pill that is sweet and I always remeber
but sometimes I forget its just the sinners problem
always getting wraped up in life...

I dont really mind
the rain on my hair
but I do care when the suns in my eyes
its just too bright
just like when you smile its too much
for hours at a time
I cant stand it no...
but I love it so....
I dont really care if Its cold
I can cover up
but when your cold..I just turn blue
and I have no idea what to do...
I get confused drives me crazy
I cant win i cant loose...
so whats the use

Its too much to ask for this
its too much to ask God for a treasure like this
oh Id do anything,
But its all on his will...
so for now this is just how it feels...
it feels real....

I could wisper a scripture to make the patients
seem fine
But than you come back and hang around in my mind
whats wrong with this
Im supposed to love this
oh but you make me realize how much I want you in my life...
and you make me realize that I cant have you no not at all....

I dont mind forgetting the bad things
and keeping the good
I dont mind laughing as loud as I can.
I mind loving you thought
just so you know
I cant take my eyes off these words...
three but it still hurts...


Its too much to ask for this
its too much to ask God for a treasure like this
oh Id do anything,
But its all on his will...
so for now this is just how it feels...
it feels real....


dont speak...
dont even move
I wanna keep this moment
and let it sink in worse
I know you know How I feel..
it has to be his will
his will

true love waits
its not really fait
its The GOd above
he creates love love love love love love

its impossible
oh impossible to forget this..
this feeling undescribable
Im spinning
Im spinning but I aint winning..