If I could run away
And still see your face
I would
your memory dies
as I get further away
from your ways
its hard oh its hard to take

you shook me like an earthquake
you broke me like an egg
spilit in half
all over the place
so if I could run away
and remeber I think I might be safe
what am I saying
im saying I loved you..
despite all the pain
and still I stayed..

I was in love
with your lies
I was in love with something so fine
so strong so wrong
so if I could run away
with your memory
just might be so sweet
cause its the only thing thats made me who I am today...

without you I woulnt be so sure of me
without you I would of stayed the same
I thought I was okay
but this is all to say
i was crazy epsically for you
but its done and I am happy to say
if I could run away with you memorys
id take apart all the parts with your face

I was in love with your lies
i was in love with something so fine
so strong so wrong
so if I could run away
Id take away everything
that had to do..
with you...

to hard to face you
its hard to get passed all that Just happened
its hard for me to think
praying as my mind sleeps
I cant keep up
your love is warm
your words are cold
its so hard to get through each storm
we pass by through and through
Oh god I need rest I need to think theres nothing we can say
were just not the same...

I dont do anything you like
and you make me cry
I cant face you tonight
even though I know I will
and I hope you know Ill still love you after this fight
cause Im gonna hold on hold on tight hold to you..to you...

your lips move onto mine
its all behind
but then I say something
adn you get mad oh god what can I do
I want to be good for you
I wanna love you like I should
it doesnt matter I get so insane when it comes to you..

I dont do anything you like
and you make me cry
I cant face you tonight
even though I know I will
and I hope you know Ill still love you after this fight
cause Im gonna hold on hold on tight hold to you..to you...

and I cant sleep no
I cant sleep
im trying...
but Im thinking..
thinking...
about all the words..you just through
out of your mouth
the loudness of it all..
you can break me in tears even before I fall...
and its hard to even think
that after this I still love you after all...

cause Im gonna
gonna hold on..
tight
to you...
to you...

I hope that you
remeber the day
that you took my breath away...
the day
the day you just went away
Like I wasnt anything
at all after the whole time
you were chasing me
this doesnt make any since to me
cant even put together the logic
for what ya did
guess i was just a little too late
I shouldnt of waited...
to tell you...
that I loved you too....

but I made you wait
then realized how big of a mistake I made
how stupid I made you wait

I didnt know it yet
but all the time we were hanging out
I couldnt imagine my life without you
I just didnt know I wanted you
I didnt realize I must of been living a lie
now I cant hide
oh I was so blind


but I made you wait
then realized how big of a mistake I made
how stupid I made you wait

and the days go by
I still remeber the night
you said goodbye..
so mean...you just made up everything
took apart the heart that was so true...
but you waited...you waited for so long...
and I kept going going on...
when you were in front of me the entire time...
I wasted so much time...
My eyes must of been so blind...
20/20 isnt matching this time...
and I cant even think what I put you through
waiting...so long...and then one day..I decide to come up
and tell you...

I loved you...


but I made you wait
then realized how big of a mistake I made
how stupid I made you wait

(this is how I used to feel and I just want the world to see how God is so amazing)

cant you
cant you see
Im not right
Im just bleeding...
I get hurt
it gets worse
Oh lord
Im falling through the floor
please help me I feel only alone
anymore..
hold me


Im far from you
whats this I cant seem to get through
each single day I just want to scream
I need your love..
I need noone you will betray me...
you'll never leave me
so take me...

broken glass
falling fast...
I hate what Ive done...
you gave this life
and Ive ruined it..
whats wrong with me..
I just want to see how you see me..

Im far from you
whats this I cant seem to get through
each single day I just want to scream
I need your love..
I need noone you will betray me...
you'll never leave me
so take me...

take me take me...
I dont want to live this way..
I just want to sing your praise..
but I hate what Ive done I feel so undone..
I feel like its impossible to forgive me for what I did..
but it says in your words that nothing is too much for you...
so please take me take me in your arms...
take me so I wont do anymore harm....
Im waking Im waking up...

SO take me...take me so I can scream your name
so these scars will all just fade..
I dont need anyone else...
your the only one who wont ever leave me alone...

I need to break away...
Cause I just cant go another day...
with all this arguing..
I dont want to leave..
but your driving me to another level of mad sad oh I just cant stand this...
were good one moment
and than the next I just want to throw something at you...
look what you do to me..
you drive me so oh crazy...

and I love you
no doubt bout that
and I aint ever gonna leave
so babe relax
I love you when Im mad..
even if it hurts
Ill stick with you till the end...
even if it all gets worse..
were gonna work...


I see your face and I know Im in the right place...
I know my heart looks inside yours and its no mistake
but I just cant take when you say those things
that make me angry
and I know I may piss you off..
but this cant keep happening...
and I love you
no doubt bout that
and I aint ever gonna leave
so babe relax
I love you when Im mad..
even if it hurts
Ill stick with you till the end...
even if it all gets worse..
were gonna work...

mmmm...
the sky is dark
and its raining harder than a blink of an eye..
my heart is aching...
cause its you whos breaking...
each inch away.
and all the words you say...
I take it to the heart...
and oh how it gets in the way...
cause I stay...
cause I love you oh I though I knew...
but all that you were was a projection of what you
wanted me to see...

And like the strong towers above me..
Im holding onto something I cant see...
cause without you i cant breath and my eyes sites hazzy..
cause Ive been fading...
and with him Im awaking...
awaking....
awaking...

You stood right in front of me...
and you had these tears coming out your eyes...
telling me your sorry you ever lied...
but deep down as much as I wanted to hug you and
kiss those tears away I knew i knew they were fake..
they were fake...

and you try to say..
that it was just a night
you got a little too high...
and I didnt even know drugs crossed
your mind..
its like the whole time...
I was soo blind...
i jumped before I knew where I was falling

Ang before I knew it I said goodbye...
and I went to my room sat on my knees and cried...
praying for the first time in 6 years it had been so much time..
wasted away...when all I needed was someone to save me..

no one can save you...
cause no one has the power to...
only the one not of this world...
hes the one I had to talk to ....

and I was so blind but now as it says I can see...
and Im not sorry...for leaving you so quickly...
but I wont be sinking down into the ground anymore...
cause thats what your good for...
making me fall..not catching me at all....
but tonight...as I pray...I wont be...falling anymore...
cause I live for something more...

lets lift off..
lets go up and talk to God..
lets dream away..into another state of mind..
and lets talk about all the mistakes we've made
Hopefully they'll wash away...hopefully ill try better next time...
and than a though comes in my mind...
in my mind...

I dont have to be perfect...
to get to you...
I just have to stay true...
to the word..
the truth...everything you do..
you were yesterday your today...
and you even tomorrow...
and there goes away...
all my mistakes..
and now we start over again..
and even then...
I dont have to be perfect...
but trying to... is worth it...

Lets pretend that were sitting up in heaven
asking all these questions why did I go in all sorts
of directions
now im awake...
now I wont try to pretend that I dont make
any mistakes...cause I do..yea i do...
but you still love me...
even though what I do can be destructive...
not productive...
but the point is I try to...
I try to be close to you..

(chorus)

Once I got my heart broken...
I decided not to fall again...
No more hands full of broken pieces that have to mend
Once I got my heart choked...
I became suffocated and provoked
so I promised No one would find..
the key to this stiched up heart of mine...
I promised God I wouldnt fall for another
sappy love song kind of guy...
oh how hard did I try to stop liking you
But i didnt even have to its just natural when Im with you...

(chorus)
da de dum
and I guess i was dumb
I should of never promised those things
cause now Im feeling diffrently...
diffrently...
and I guess I could twitter..
that Im no longer bitter...
its taken forever...
but now were together..
and I have to say...
your a star in my skys
when you kissed my lips
something I just couldnt describe
we painted hearts in the sky..


your a star in the sky
Like a bright light I cant describe
so bright so bright and...
I had so many bitterflys..flying all up in my skys
and than you came along..and shot them all..
and its funny cause I was laughing when my attraction
had a reaction and I was thinking to myself God whats wrong with me.
do I need help and i hear him laughing up a storm saying how could you ever want more?

(chorus)

Oh darling your nothing that I though you would be...
but as I said God sent you...
and he sent you to me...
and its kinda funny..
oh oh hunny...
I cant stand love songs and I cant stand romance..
but tonight take my hand
lets take a chance lets change my heart
from the unbroken
unbitter parts... and let love shine from our hearts

and Ill stand here with you...
and kiss you oh so true...
I can feel the butterflys dancing around you...
oh its so true...
oh its so true..
I should answer
to loves call I should stay
I thank GOd for the day..
you said hello to me...
you said hello to me..
and we argued...
who would of knew...
that you...and I...
would paint hearts up in the sky...

de da da da..
its all little more than okay...
cause your the guy..
I never thought
Id paint hearts in the sky
and hold hands with on saturday nights
kiss in the daylight even in the twilight
its amazing it feels right...
when we paint hearts up in the sky...

Ive become numb
to the sound of your voice..
I guess you could say its a choice..
its a natural reaction
cause my ears wont hear lies...

Ive become independent...
cause my dependents wasnt doing anything
wasnt changing thing...
I guess you could say...
Ive gone my own way...
even though your hand locks in mine today...

(chorus)
I could tell you a million words
and you wouldnt even know what you heard
cause you dont care...and your not there
when your with me...
na na na so simple to see...
cause your you when your with her...
and with me you wear a smile...
its like Im a curse...

Ive become numb to the fact
that I love you...
but you'll never love me back...
I should just go
and never look back...
but then if I do..
Ill be dust dust to you...
and what if my assumptions arent even true?

(chorus)

it was about midnight...
and I was trying to sleep
but I was trying to keep an eye out...
for the truth..
and I get this call...
and tears would fall..
inside..
I couldnt even try...
there was nothing I could say..
but uh huh okay..
and I didnt believe her..
but then I found...
a millions signs...to the sound...
of the melody...
you and her completed together...
oh together...
I hope forever.

(Chorus)

Nothing is going right
Wondering how I'm gonna survive
It seems to be falling down
I'm not thinking with my spirit
It's all just my mind
As he says don't bother to look behind

So why am I about to loose my mind
Along with his heart
So much struggling
Trying to keep it together
It's just another storm
Just a little under the weather

How come when I see things falling down
I look at the ground
When the sky is around?

The time I'm wasting
The struggles I'm facing
I can see your trying to shake me
I try oh lord I try
I don't want my head down
I wanna look to the sky
Stand firm on my ground
And remeber the sound
THe angels sing
Sing halleluh to the king..
And I gotta keep remebering
He lives in me

Mm mmm

I don't like doing things I don't wAnt to do
Your word says the truth
Sometimes I'm blinded by this fight
And sometimes I don't do anything right
But even though I fall
Your still there after all despite my faults...

And after all I still answer to your call


The time I'm wasting
The struggles I'm facing
I can see your trying to shake me
I try oh lord I try
I don't want my head down
I wanna look to the sky
Stand firm on my ground
And remeber the sound
THe angels sing
Sing halleluh to the king..
And I gotta keep remebering
He lives in me

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Labels: Liiving

Is it right,is it fair, in the end who of this world would care
Someday I wanna rip out my hair the things you say drive me insane
So much screaming so much pain
You blame everything on me
Your my angel but you have no wings
Why is everything a constant stuggle




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time slips away in a moment..
of cheesy lines...
time slips away when your trying too hard..
not to even try...
time slips away when your silent cause you have no idea what to say.
and time slips away when Im too shy to show...

cause you know you know
I wont ever let ya go..
you know you know..
your heart has apart of me...
and it wont go away..
you know you know
sometimes its all hard to say.
hard to say..

time slips away when I shake..
cause I cant seem to look at your face...
cause your words made my tears fade...
time slips away when I think of you...
and time slips away when all I think is missing you...
and time slips away oh i dont even know..

(chorus)

da da da da da da

I felt the cold air go by my cheek
and as it did your lips warmed me..
as you kissed me...
and my heart was cold...
but it seems your warming...

I cant explain how I feel...
I love you is beautiful
but it goes above how I feel
its real
no doubt in that...
I guess I should of known youd make me
have a heartattack..
at least Im alive...
and the funny thing is I never tried
this feeling is just set on its own...

and if GOd made the sun and the moon collide
then he's why our hearts align..
and I love you like the stars in the sky
its endless and its impossible to describe...

you reach for my hand..
and I blush even when you dont understand
you hold me as a sign of love..
I speak the words...but its not enough..
Im not used to being okay with this...
you make me feel butterflys as we kiss..
its like a moment doesnt go by
when i thank God...that your alive...


and if God made the sun and the moon collide
then hes why our hearts align
and I love you like the stars in the sky
its endless and impossible to describe

your like a rare form of beautiful
your like a lyric
thats too hard to form...
cause its hard to put this into words...
so take my hand...
and never let it go...
your the one thing I cant ignore...
cause God has set us up..
so nomader what..
were stuck in love.

=)

give me a sign..
how long will I have to waste time..
am i wasting time I say...
you say nothing..
gosh this isnt helping..
but I trust you..
la la trust trust trust...
but its hard waiting..
hate anticipating...

your a mysery..
I know nothing
nomader what I study..
Its you its me..your my savior..
Im your diamond we last forever...

and Ill chase you..
until my day is due..
yea Ill chase you
and I cant stand the waiting
give me strength to be patient...
Im trying to behave say something..
say something la la la la

your not a dissapointment no
you've been through so much
I know your lifes been rough
and even thought you want me gone..
I still pray that you'll be strong...

you hide behind your lies
the ones you tell yourself..
you always pretending
that life is just worth ending
when deep down ya just want to live..
its a shame...
but I still stuck with it....

BRIDGE
cause beleive it or not..
I cared for you more than anyone
I cared for you so hard..
like rocks..Id go so far..

CHORUS
and this song is to say..thank you
im sorry i got in the way..
thank you for being the only one who stayed...
I wish I could say that today...
I wish you could hear these words...
maybe one day...this will be something you wish you could of said..
but I guess you walked away with words left unsaid

You always said we would never change..
nomader what happend..we'd gone through enough pain..
cause nothing could get worse...
if we stayed strong...
if we both made it first...
and I get that I was too good to you..
and I get that you let your heart get confused...
Now Im left without the friend I though I had

its such a shame...
How I just sit and wait for a response
its one of those I wait I think I just love you...

Im a girl
your an easy addiction
your kisses make me miss you
in an instant
how brillant you are...
how smart..
Id go so far to see you..
you have eyes like stars
they go so deep they go so far...

Chorus
and some nights I wont sleep
cause I think about so many things
I think about you..
and than I pray I can keep you..
Im one of those crazy girls..
I just cant help but want to be apart of your world..
your world...
our world...
Gods world..
cant help it...

Its a little hard to take
the fact that I love you as much as I love cake..
its a little diffrent Im all kinda submissive..
but I still stand up cause I know Im with it...
I got my independents you got your smile
and our diffrent opinions we could just argue for miles...
but I seem to be like a kid..always wanting to take a sip
doesnt matter the consequence your heaven sent...

(chorus)

its a little weird
a little strange
someone I love
yea they feel the same..
I could go around the world..
Id stil be your girl
so never forget...
your heaven sent...

(chorus)

you never say the right thing...
and you always keep on trying...
so then we just end up fighting

But when we kiss its like everything doesnt matter anymore...
just you and I and the lord..
its like a feeling I never though could exsist...

you always are such a kid..
and Im more serious...
you play games..
I just sang...

oooo....

and oppostie attraction
with the same reaction...
a fire for life..
a fire for God..
a fire for us..
theres no way to explain.
ive never loved...
anyone who loved me the same...

you say things that make no sense...
I love to say chicken...
you say im crazy..
I say for you..
you pray long...
I pray short...
you take my breath away with each single kiss...

(bridge)
(chorus)

I stand on the edge of time..
hoping that Ill gain sometime of words
to describe the heart that wants to shine...
this light..
I stand with my feet on the ground
I could scream but theres no one around
your no where in sight...
but I know faith is what keeps me going
each day and everynight...
and I know...
yes I know...

the world may transform
the world may destroy
your love is what keeps
us strong...
and I know these words
mean nothing to many...
but those who shine..
shine up like a city..
but even in the darkness
GOd thinks your pretty

da de dum dum da de dum dum

I didnt look before I walked...
and I didnt think before..I talked...
I was blinded by a light..
and you sweet talked all through every night..
i believed all your lies..
its funny how many times I cried...

I remeber the i got..
she was beautiful
and I know Im not..
and I remeber...pretending I was okay..
but inside...I kepy denying...the pain...
you had two seperate lives..such a munipulative guy...
I should of read the signs...

I could of been so rich
if everytime yo ulied..
I got a dime..
cause it was a never ending
time of your crime...
and I thank God I handled it well..
cause look where I am now...
Im doing swell

give me a second...
a second to breath...
dont even tryyy to speak...
cant you see theres tears running down my cheak...

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
no...I wont be your friend
its to hard..to look at you and think of you as just a man
because I had been kissing you weeks ago...and its like snow
i melted as the sun had shown..and here we go..as fast as i said I love you..
you agreed with it too..but I know I know baby your confused..
you kissed my lips told me I was the girl you needed the girl you dreamed of the girl
the one for you..

but some how I knew...
that you wouldnt call.
and some how i Knew
your words meant nothing at all..
and its like snow i melted as the sun shown and here we go
over again Im sorry I cant just be your friend

so stop...
dont you walk..
cause I know..
your just gonna run away..
like you do...
your such a kid...
so lost so confused...
and I am stuck to you..
just like elmers glue

Its not easy feeling this way...
binds that cling to me and mold me like clay
cant get to attached..
dont want to end up falling back..
the fear of loosing you..
is almost like not trusting you...
But It seems...the chains follow me as I go...
and these work still...I can say...but Ill choke I cant help I feel this way...

and I wanna be set free
so I can love fully..
I wanna be able to never worry your gonna leave me
in the cold like ive been sold...
so with the Glory of God...
I want to be set free...
from the chains that bind me

na na na na na....

I cant see straight cause I keep on looking away...
and though I know Im in love with you..
theres still some doubt about trusting you..
your everything that I wanted nothing that you seem..
its just hard to believe that God let ya find me..


(chorus)

So lord I trust in you..
to help me trust in him..
ive lived a life of being sinned against
by so many other men..
i dont want to be blind..
and I dont want to loose him so
please help me...