I cant say that I dont miss you
and that loosing you isnt gonna hurt
cause I just feel worse
for denying or even trying to being okay with this loss..

but honestly I just cant breathe...
why cant i seee...

i miss you
and I cant loose you
i miss you and htis is the trth
your my best friend
and now it has to end...

i cant imagine
a moment in time
were we didnt speak
or didnt need each others company

i wish i wasnt dumb..
ignoring everything you said to me...

i miss you
and I cant loose you
i miss you and thats the trth
your my best friend
and now it has to end...

are we gonna walk away from this..
are we gonna talk or does it end...

I dont want to say goodbye...
but I have to try...
goodbye...
I hope you have a nice life...
God have mercy on our tears
the ones were gonna cry
gonna miss you in my life...

I made a mistake let my heart and my mind get the best of me...
I made a quick diffrence in the diffrence that was already made..
how could I of been so dumb now im a lil confused a lil bruised..
i just wish that i didnt have to do those things to you..
to you to you...
I made a mistake will you forgive me.
do you still love me even though what I did wasnt beautiful
what I did made beauty so ugly...

and now i can feel the changes..
it wont ever be the same thing...
round and round Im gonna knock this down
I wont let my feet reach the ground...
im gonna loose what i found...
sorry isnt enough...
but no one ever said love wasnt gonna be tough..
so im not giving up...

i made a mistake a shake a piece of a heart
was made that shouldnt be there
if i let this mistake make this whole
thing Id have to let you know
that Id have to let you go...
I made a mistake I hope you forgive
God have mercy
another lesson...
its hard but I still live...



and now i can feel the changes..
it wont ever be the same thing...
round and round Im gonna knock this down
I wont let my feet reach the ground...
im gonna loose what i found...
sorry isnt enough...
but no one ever said love wasnt gonna be tough..
so im not giving up...

Today I woke up..
Today I realized..
how your gone and Im left to hide..
left to hide...
i wont admit how hard it was to cry..
and I wont admit that I believed every lie...
it was so hard to beleve that you were lying to me..
you just kept going and I kept on ignoring...
how I knew I felt i felt doubt...

cause I beleived your lies..
who would of known Id have to hide..
like rain drops dropping..
thats how it all went down...
like sun shining thats how it could of been..
I fell so hard...I played so hard..
and I still couldnt win

your cheeks light up when the picture fits the frame..
your eyes were serious...
as serious as I played...
it was a heart...a card a part..a story of a rip...
a tear even thought you werent there half the time..
i guess I got used to the thought of you..in my mind..
so much time..when I should of just left you behind...

cause I beleived your lies..
who would of known Id have to hide..
like rain drops dropping..
thats how it all went down...
like sun shining thats how it could of been..
I fell so hard...I played so hard..
and I still couldnt win

I woke up in the moring....and Couldnt help but write...
cause your worthyness is too high to even price...
I cant help but love everything about you..
my life would be worthless without you..
The book i read each day is the book about you..
I open it up and Know through these words I know Ill find all truth...

So I lift my hands up
cause nomader what I will never give up
your my strength your the one
I cant hold my head down your more than an angelic sound
your the sun in the sky...
and the rain that washes the pain...
your my life...Jesus christ.

mmmm....can you keep a secret...
can you keep this to yourself..
can you keep my heart...
dont put it on a shelf...
can you love me for a lifetime...
or are you going to eventually leave me without..
Can you hold my hand and love me with more than your words...
can you break the fear of knowning what Love is worth...

Breathe the cold in...
blow it out...
I prayed for you...
so it has to be true..
nomader the struggle..
nomader the pain..
your the one for me...
so I cant run away...

Can you keep your eyes open
dont close them through this day..
Can you kiss my lips..make my heart beat...
can you even see anyone but me..
can you hold me..even when I dont want you near me..
can you make sure my words are what your hearing...


Breathe the cold in...
blow it out...
I prayed for you...
so it has to be true..
nomader the struggle..
nomader the pain..
your the one for me...
so I cant run away...


Its pure its beautiful...
my best friend my wonderful..
a gift a bless bigger than what I thought...
your everything I never thought
and everything i want...

I wanted so much for us...
but it didnt go that way..it was a rush...
I wanted to grow into something beautiful and true..
but I guess...I got stuck..stuck so rough harder than glue...
and Now Ive lost you...Ive lost you...cause you just walked away...

My heart pounded when you just left me in astray..
I didnt have any words to stay so my attitude got in the way...
It all began...and it went away down into the sand...
theres nothing I could do I lost you...

So you tried to say..
your sorry...
and than hoped Id be okay..
and than you walked away...
as the tears ran down my face..
I couldnt say a word...
for once my heart had been heard...
For once I took away the coating on my heart...
For once I thought Id wouldnt have to resteart my heart...


I thought that I had found that thing
the one that made my heart beat and my lips sing...
God knows Id give anything to keep you...
God knows Ive prayed and wished for you...
and all I can remeber is the crushing apart.
the eyeliner on my face and my tears ripping my heart apart...


So you tried to say..
your sorry...
and than hoped Id be okay..
and than you walked away...
as the tears ran down my face..
I couldnt say a word...
for once my heart had been heard...
For once I took away the coating on my heart...
For once I thought Id wouldnt have to resteart my heart...

Soft thoughts wandering through my head..
couldnt believe anything that was said...
But some how you got the best of me..
some how you got the part of me..that I dont show to anyone
its done its done its done..
blink of an eye...one little sigh...birds in the sky..
cracks on the ground..
at least these pains give me songs with a sound...


another song for another day gone wrong..
cause Im gone..gone away...
I cant do it again...
cant be your friend
but at the same time i cant just walk away...
No not today...I want to but will this ever fade...

to impatient..I should of just waited..
I jump than fall but God catches me everytime
I should of known you"d change your mind..
too much pressure..its not any better...
One kiss...didnt last forever..
so no more you and I no more together so


another song for another day gone wrong..
cause Im gone..gone away...
I cant do it again...
cant be your friend
but at the same time i cant just walk away...
No not today...I want to but will this ever fade...

shooting stars
are just like beating hearts...
and everytime I see the sky...
I remeber that twinkle in your eyes
Its so diffrent to realize...
that everything that was came around twice...
And when I look at the sky I remeber when you were in my life,...


and I cried and cried..
drove you to the curb,
but you loved me thought I didnt deserve
And as we became friends it just all got worse...
cause you loved me
and I wanted to be your everything
but I was just too dumb to tell you I loved you...



Blue skys I was so full of pride
I didnt need anything at all..
and God knows I was an angel that had a fall..
and all you wanted was for me to notice
that you wanted to give me the world and I was tooo stupid to realize that I was supposed to be your girl..

and I cried and cried..
drove you to the curb,
but you loved me thought I didnt deserve
And as we became friends it just all got worse...
cause you loved me
and I wanted to be your everything
but I was just too dumb to tell you I loved you...

Then the day came...where i finally told you how I felt the same
and than there she came..kissed your lips right in front of my face..
My heart exploded it just breaks...
the moment I saw her by your face...
i was so confused
the other night it was I love you..
I love you too..today its oh never mind were through...
and I never got to put this feeling to an end..you just left me it was all an end...
and were nothing...just friends...na na naa



and I cried and cried..
drove you to the curb,
but you loved me thought I didnt deserve
And as we became friends it just all got worse...
cause you loved me
and I wanted to be your everything
but I was just too dumb to tell you I loved you...

you make it seem so easy...
you make it seem that everything is easy and new...
Im not comfortable...giving my heart if Im so used to
hurting so used to trusting only my faith
Im able to like but im not able to stay...


ive come to a point where I cant love another anymore
come to a point where I can only trust the Lord...
giving my heart is like being broken down
so Id rather stay with God
cause I know Im safe and sound

Im just telling you the truth...
I dont want to keep anything from you...
my hearts is solid rock...
and I want to let you in...
but its as if I know I wont make to the finish
ill run away...


ive come to a point where I cant love another anymore
come to a point where I can only trust the Lord...
giving my heart is like being broken down
so Id rather stay with God
cause I know Im safe and sound

I hope that you listen to this
its a little thought of being dumb and its a little bit of being done..
I told you i had doubt and you said well I just cant live without you..
a guardian angel changing your heart in certain ways and i didnt realize
you had more than one face...
and even thought saying this makes my heart pace...Im still gonna remeber every word you would say...so..

and this is my last goodbye
not gonna bother loving you for life
its done its gone it happened so long ago
it seems even though it hasnt been long
but Im stronger each time I get stronger more
so this is my last goodbye....

I was walking on fire...
burning walking without fear..
but being scared on the side....
im like a sidewalk
and you walked on my cracks
and you promised you werent gonna do that...
I kept pulling you kept tugging...but you let go...
and its okay...this will be the last song about this memory

and this is my last goodbye
not gonna bother loving you for life
its done its gone it happened so long ago
it seems even though it hasnt been long
but Im stronger each time I get stronger more
so this is my last goodbye....




and I said how can you be so sure you love me....
if all we do is fall apart..and you ended up saying
Im sorry thought I could keep this up...
didnt have the guts to say I found the one..
well im done with the I love you songs
the missing how it was...
the missing of pages that are erased
and moments that were spent in unrealistic terms
im done with yearning for you...loving you Ive let it all go away...
and Im here to say...


and this is my last goodbye
not gonna bother loving you for life
its done its gone it happened so long ago
it seems even though it hasnt been long
but Im stronger each time I get stronger more
so this is my last goodbye....

Strange how I pass by and it doesnt do anything to you..
strange that I can live and you dont feel a thang
you dont give a damn..
and I feel like a million rocks of sand
spread out everywhere..stepping on me not thinking that Im there...
what do I say...
you'll never notice me.....

SO my plain was to give ya my hand...
give you my heart..
but the exstince of me in your eyes..
is so weak..
a friend a girl..
big deal.
i think I should just explain how I feel..
cause everyone needs a song about wanting someone you cant have


I dont have it bad...
no I dont even have it near bad...
I have it worse than Ive had...
I wanna kiss you and I miss you when I dont see your face
I paint pictures in my mind
no im not obssesed I just want the best..
and it seems to be you..
but you dont notice me...
Im nothing to you...
and still everynight I pray.
that one day you;ll be with me...

its a never ending heartbreak to waste time someone who just doesnt care
why do I bother,Im such a doll sitting on shelf
in the cornor and i dont want to be I want you next to me...
holding me when I feel weak..
praying with me when I feel like Im fading..
I just want something that involves you with me..
and I just cant get the guts to walk up and confess my love..
cause I know you wont reallycare...
cause to you...Im not even there....
you could care less..
about the pain I feel ooo...

I was a little suprised when I figured out you lied...
shouldnt of even tried to believe you...
Im sorry that I never informed you that I was going to delete you...
but I couldnt sit there and pretend that what you were doing wasnt right...
I tried so many times to tell you to just stop but I couldnt cause my heart would drop
everytime you came around


and now its all on the ground...
and the tears didnt even make a sound
and Im hopeless to this now...
But I hope to God that you enjoyed your time messing with my mind...

oooo my mind....

And Im processing all the words you said
and then realize that they were never alive
they were always dead...
and I had to find out online
and how stupid I wasted so much time wishing for you.
praying for you to see...that you and I could be
so stupid so girly of me...
I shouldnt be so easy with words..
easy with time
I should of known youd find another and leave me behind...


I tried so many times to tell you to just stop but I couldnt cause my heart would drop
everytime you came around

and now its all on the ground...
and the tears didnt even make a sound
and Im hopeless to this now...
But I hope to God that you enjoyed your time messing with my mind...