Its not fair no its not
how could you
I hate what you did cant hate you no not at all
I Keep thinking you keeping popping in my mind
Oh how I wish I could rewind the time
that I fell for you
And the more I miss you I fall all over again
Oh I wish I didnt have to feel like this once again...

sugar and spice
yea thats my vice
sweet and hot as ice
Oh the thought of you burns
I got you locked up in my heart in my mind
I cant leave you no Ive tried to
I rember the wonderus things that you said
well all those words are just dead...

You promised not to forget no not to drift
well you've gone farther than the distance that already is
I know you care oh baby I know you do
but its no use
I pray so many times
hoping you'd drift from my mind
Oh How I wish I could rewind
the time I fell for you
Its no use
your memory sunk in deep
God knows your hearts not mine to keep
so Ill try to forget...
Ill warn you Im not patient
I dont easily let go,Just thought you should Know..
I havent got over you...

I dont usually get into the habit of being heartached
dont worry hun its just a little scratch Ill soon be okay
this heart will once again be able to be loved again
No more games or wasted time not gonna bother anymore
Not after this no offense
Ill be fine I always heal with time I just wish I could let you go
Oh how I wish my heart could follow to you...
but thats not realistic nor would it be true.


sugar and spice
yea thats my vice
sweet and hot as ice
Oh the thought of you burns
I got you locked up in my heart in my mind
I cant leave you no Ive tried to
I rember the wonderus things that you said
well all those words are just dead...

Its hard to say what I need to
I dont usually feel so unusual
what can I do...I have no idea how to tell you...
your fragrence goes away fast
How do I say this do I really have to ask?
O I cant relax I need to know

I wanna know I need to know
Im spining out of control
I have no idea what to say
how do I say this when your so far
your distance is not that far apart but
it seems so when you dont speaK I just get weak
when you do the strength goes into control
what do I do I cant read you...


I cant stand not being able to understand the actions that you make the words that you speak one moment its amazing the second its silent one minute your smiling the next your just gone I feel so wrong I feel so right I feel uptight theres so much I cant read I need to I need to know no I want I want...

if the world stopped would you be the one Id walk to
if the world stopped and you opened your eyes
wouldnt you see how I feel inside?
If the world stoped would you mind
would you mind If I made you mine?
But I dont even know
No I cant even tell...this fog I cant see through at all..
Ill just pray pray to know the truth or just pray to stop thinking of you...

And I go crazy thinking cause I dont even know what to think
one thing another I just dont want to bother what do I do
I just need to know the truth so I dont have to chase after something that doesnt even want to be chased I cant waist time thats just how I am.

thinking about it drives me to a point where its hard to breathe
wanting to say something but knowning it really means nothing
Loving you but staying away.
I have no words to express how this doesnt fade
was it fate or am I dumb?,I cant seem to fall short
or even go numb
I love you and I wish I didnt
your on my mind but I know you shouldnt be
I cant seem to shake
what started
I cant seem to pretend it never happend
Now I feel like it could of been a mistake
But I cant seem to regret no
I dont And I wont
I dont regret
But I wish i would forget

its kinda simple if you really think about it
going up speaking and thinking what your going to say right?
its not easy And I couldnt describe why
What to say
what you care for what you think?
I dont really know
Im low down in a sink waiting to wash away...

Mark 10:9 (The Message)

^5-9Jesus said, "Moses wrote this command only as a concession to your hardhearted ways. In the original creation, God made male and female to be together. Because of this, a man leaves father and mother, and in marriage he becomes one flesh with a woman—no longer two individuals, but forming a new unity. Because God created this organic union of the two sexes, no one should desecrate his art by cutting them apart."

Time to time I think back about what was
and what is. Its sad to know something so real
cant really exsist

I miss everything about you.
I dont really want to live without you
but what can I do?
Nothing nothing at all
All I can do Is pray and wish you on your way.

Its hard to think that you really are as you seem
and its hard to know that you cant become my everything
I already know that you'll find someone new
I already know you've forgotten and it wasnt that true

I must of been the one to pass your time
Until Life gets better
well your wish came true...

Your life is new
I know you didnt intentionally hurt me
but you did
you shouldnt of promised the things you did
you promised it wouldnt end like this
look what you did...

I blame it on my self
I always become the pretty doll sitting on a shelf
Hoping and wishing someone will see
how much I have inside of me.
Im so nieve
and I know I dont seem
like I feel anything bad
But I feel so sad.
And Im happy too
but I just wish I could be with you...

la de da la de da
I wont fall no no
la de da la de da
I love you still after all

Your life is new
I know you didnt intentionally hurt me
but you did
you shouldnt of promised the things you did
you promised it wouldnt end like this
look what you did...

Im so stupid
so dumb
I close my heart up
and I pick who gets it
but everytime I trust someone
they just hit it.
And I know its not on purpose
I just feel like getting to know someone
and letting that wall down is just worthless.

Look what you did?
and I hope next time you decide to
tell someone you love them that you mean it
dont promise them
everything you did me.
if you cant keep what you say than dont say anything at all
your lucky Im strong enough to not fall because I have jesus after all.
but one day your gonna find someone whos not as strong
and the things you say better be true
and she better be amazing
I wish I was her.
But thats far from the truth.

Im not afraid
but at the same time I am
its so hard to understand
when you have no idea what direction your going
Its hard not knowing
its hard to wait
but I believe yea I have my faith

Im scared
and Im confused
I have nothing to loose
Its a huge path that I dont know when it ends
nor do I even know when it begins
I am in your hands
thats all I really understand

Nothing is easy
I already saw that coming
Yea i already knew that
Distractions
Have gotten in but havent sunk all the way.
I push forth to get closer to you everyday

Growing and learning
and seeing the unknown
holding on to this faith
and always feeling home.

Im afraid But I trust you
Im only afraid because this is all brand new
this is all a new view
a new life
a new time
new faces new water to pour within me

I know one thing though
this isnt ending
this is only the begining
and even when it ends
it wont this love is for eternity

I didnt want to but I had to do it there really was nothing that I could do
it all happened so fast
its like the past just came evolving back
I have no control its shut and theres nothing I can do
I figured it would happen again
because thats how this heart mends
it doesnt let anyone in
too cautious to be hurt
theres no point in giving my heart away
if It all just gets worse

Im not the biggest fan of maybes
it has to be for sure
thats whats makes things worse
I seem to live with this wall
that doesnt ever seem to fall.

Give me one good reason to believe you
Did you really think That Id fall?
You dont really know me at all
I fell for Jesus But not you..
Im so sorry
But you loose.
Its okay to pretend like its all Okay.
But Im the type that cant just sit there and pretend it is

so sit there and tell me you love me
and Ill sit here and know the truth yea
I know the truth

Im done with guys like you.
Always saying I love you.
hun we've been there before
and I know you want more
but this is all i can give.
Im not sorry,your a great friend
but thats all you and I have ever really been.

so sit there and tell me you love me
and Ill sit here and know the truth yea I know the truth

Im not stupid
And I know most girls are.
And I know you dont want to harm
but Im alarmed and I know
Im staying pure,
your just getting worse
I wont think twice
cause it aint right get used to how I feel
respect it and get real.

so sit there and tell me you love me yea and Ill sit here and know the truth
I know what you want,you cant hide it no,you cant fight it,but I can.

Your eyes had a gleam I couldnt get past
All the hurt
I couldnt get past all the guilt
and i couldnt get past how I felt
I tried to deny all that I felt
and I put you through hell
I wish you could tell how sorry I am
I wish you would just understand...

Take my hand
take my hand
Dont let me go
like you did before
I fell for you
And I always will feel it
just Like I did yesterday...
you told me you loved me
and you've loved me since the day you saw me sing...
I know that love was true
dont you??

I think about it everyday...
I try to let it just fade
I couldnt get past all the flaws you had
and when I did I just couldnt get past how I felt..
I totally messed up the first love that was true
your my one regret yea thats the truth
I wish you could tell how sorry I am
I wish you would just understand...

Sometimes it hurts so bad
I hate to look in the past
but you werent something thats just a blur
I can see you as clear as I saw you before
and all the times you saved me from pain
and all the times you held me just to tell me Im okay...
And all the times you went out of your way
just to make sure I was safe
I cant erase that nO Its not something that will fade

all the times we laughed
and all the times we cryed
all the nights we stayed up
and wouldnt get off the phone...
you were the best friend
and I was the girl...
you loved
did you know I loved you??

its too late now...
Its too late now??
its too late now
I lost what I found
and its okay yea its fine
but i cant help that it crosses my mind
Im over it
But It haunts me
cause it was my worst mistake Ive ever made.

Lord,This new heart isnt torn
Lord,I have never felt whole before.
Before I felt destroyed and empty
I have no reason to cry besides loving you.

I will let you lead my life
Im willing to do what you want me to do
everything that I decide to do will be for you
and you tell me everything
your perfect your everything

I will let you down
But Ill always be around
Ill shout your name and praise in joy
I dont want to be anywhere else
I want to praise you!!
Lord I live for you
Lord I love you...
Keep my soul and never let me go

my whole life is yours
Ive given you my life
Take it now
Lord,I am complete as long as I believe
I know you love me
with all the love and more
father I love you...
everything you offer and everything you stand for
thank you...

You died on the cross
and we sin and we are a loss
but you still see us as wonderful
and you love me nomader what
I will follow your ways
Jesus you are my life...
and Jesus I will forever stay in the light

I lift my hands up get on my knees
praise you lord your all I need
the things you give
the things you take
it doesnt matter
I will not forsake you.

Father I am yours
take all that is bad
and tear it out forever more...
I want nothing to do with the selfish ways
Ive had
I only want to please you
you are God.
you are pefect, my everything...

Forever I will stay
forever I will pray
forever I will say lord
Theres no day I wont love you.
theres no day I wont shout your name
Lord.you are all I need
your everything

Moments of time
they past by But Im still not blind
I can feel the distance
Its farther than it was before.
It makes me love you but not love you
and its okay Ive made it through this before....

Distance doesnt help
And Im not sure how I feel
I feel like its okay.
But at the same time I get worried
I should of known how things go here we go..

I was faced with Deception
I couldnt find myself once again
And I thought I knew everything
And I really thought I was okay
But one day I couldnt pretend
I couldnt like
I needed Christ....

Chorus

Empty handed I was lost
Frozen
than opened hearted I was
found in your hands
you opened the door to my life
I walked into your lifght
give me your heart
Ill give you mind
with you I am combined

It seems the shadows of self doubt
never went away
and my life without you
was wasting away
Jesus you Saved me
from the pain
the wounds which all have left
went away

Chorus

Ill never leave I feel you here
Lord I lift my hands to you
You've taken me from the dark
when I was broken
and brought me back to freedom and truth

whole hearted I come
I have this heart of yours to keep
and you have mine
and you and I will always combine

I was sitting next to the door My feet on the floor
my head in my lap
I kept crying
you kept talking back
I couldnt relax
it all started with a call
thats the end of it all
I just wanted you to tell the truth
cause I already knew...
You go home and Im still alone
You keep telling me how you love me
and dont want to lose me
you were so confusing

I cant do this I cant do this
I need to let you go...

I cant do this alone
I surrendered Lord
i need the strength to let him go..
save me!!!!!!!!
I get on my knees and I pray for peace...
this heart of mine is complete
come into me.

So You walk through the gate...
this time I couldnt excape
You sat far away...
cause I wouldnt sit near...
You thought I was transparent
and I would walk to you...
I looked at you..and told you exactly How I felt...
Im sorry I cant deal with you and someone else.
I wont be a puppet on a shelf now...

I need help I need help
Lord pick me up pick me up
I cant do this alone
save me!!!
I surrendered Lord
i need the strength to let him go..
I get on my knees and I pray for peace...
this heart of mine is complete
come into me.



So I told you I couldnt do it.
and you cried
But I knew that you were just faking it
and even if you regret what you did
Im glad you hurt me
Im glad because I wouldnt of found who I am
and what Im supposed to live for.

so I said goodbye.
and ignored your crys
the Lord shut you out
out of my life...

you were always so perfect
Looking deep into my eyes
you were exactly my type of guy
you just called me everyday.and always hung with me
and you'd say.
I love you so much
you everything to me
baby please just be with me.

i was so dumb
I let things get in the way
and couldnt focus on what my heart was saying
your the one regret I stand today and rember of those days...
I let my best friend go away
I didnt see straight
I let the one who Loved me
saw me for who I was
get away...and when i said sorry
you didnt respond
its been years and still when I see you
I think Im in love...

its hard to forget
those who were in your life
and went distances just to make things right
Its hard to forget the times you tried
the nights I cried
and you held me and told me its alright
you watched me fall
And I did so much wrong.
the things I did No wonder you left.
We werent together.
But We wanted forever.
I couldnt seem to stay with just you.
I was confused.
But I have known
that your love was the truth
and I loved you too...

(choruse)

I was hungover and you walked miles upon miles to make sure I was safe
the last time I kissed you.
You wanted more
and I just had to resist you.
I wanted something more.
I guess you didnt want this.
I guess you were just lieing
I swear I felt your heart beat...
when Our lips met.
I wish I didnt regret what I did
all the times I treated you so wrong
you were the one
you will be the one
that i will never forget.
I will never forget you..

I was in love with you.
I saw you a couple months ago.
I almost fell to my knees
so I just walked away.
Hoping you didnt see me.
I froze didnt know what to do.
I wish you knew...I will always love you.

apart of my heart.
falls apart
with the thought
of losing you
you were the one
that I could of begun
my entire life with
I will forever miss
the times we laughed
the nights we stayed up wishing we could
be by eachothers side.